21.5.09
We are all too used to sounds. We are afraid of silence. The t.v. sound, the sound of people talking,something or the other. Even mentally there is a lot going on. Not a moment of peace and queit. To the extent, we are unnerved of somebody else's silence.
For the past few days I feel like not talking. Not out of anger, but just to be queit. Do my work silently, bring a calmness to my mind, buzzing with thoughts. I have been trying not to be angry, frustrated, to stop daydreaming. But to the people around me I seem to have become very serious. To them it seems - something is troubling me. But all I want to do is look inward. Start a different journey. Travel a different path. I have had glimpses of my inner strengths and joys. They were but glimpses. Now I would like to seriously seek them out. Explore them. To do that I need calmness. Externally and internally. Otherwise I might miss out on the beauty of the inner light. But then I live in a world of noise. A world of cacophony. A world so afraid of silence. A world so bad in communication and lacking in, confidence that everything has to be repeaated again and again. And here I am seeking a world of silence.
For the past few days I feel like not talking. Not out of anger, but just to be queit. Do my work silently, bring a calmness to my mind, buzzing with thoughts. I have been trying not to be angry, frustrated, to stop daydreaming. But to the people around me I seem to have become very serious. To them it seems - something is troubling me. But all I want to do is look inward. Start a different journey. Travel a different path. I have had glimpses of my inner strengths and joys. They were but glimpses. Now I would like to seriously seek them out. Explore them. To do that I need calmness. Externally and internally. Otherwise I might miss out on the beauty of the inner light. But then I live in a world of noise. A world of cacophony. A world so afraid of silence. A world so bad in communication and lacking in, confidence that everything has to be repeaated again and again. And here I am seeking a world of silence.
